Tuesday 9 December 2014

I chained my daemons  all the while only to  be met by your daemons...
I saved  my kisses all the while only to be kissed by you...
I saved  my hugs all the while only to be hugged by you...
Here I am still waiting for you...

Saturday 6 December 2014

A Dream Come True- Chemban Vinod Jose

I have been wanting to pen down something about my brother for a long time. The feeling got severe ever since his Malayalam movie 'Sapthamashree Thaskaraha' announced to be a major hit.  And the success was followed by another hit which is 'Iyobibnte Pusthakam'. It is very painful fact that I could not get to watch both the movies yet.  As of now I am waiting for the DVD release.Blame it on  the fact that 'Me residing in Adelaide,Australia' .

Yes 'Chemban Vinod Jose' is my elder brother.  We are 3 siblings  Vinod ,Deepa & Ullas. Ever since I can remember I can relate to his passion for movies. I have a vague memory of him taking myself to watch the  Hindi movies  'Sholay' and  'Dance Dance'. Considering the fact that ,Angamaly did not have 'Releasing Centers' it should be somewhere in 1988 or 1989. Our 'Amma' had gone to visit her parents in the nearby town and gave myself to 'Chettan' to take care of. (I call him as 'Chetta' and all my cousins call him 'Vinodetta').He wanted to make use of the time and took me as well to watch the movie.

And the repercussions of watching 'Sholay' with him was funny .I was Baldev Singh at home . My hands were tied , my brother enacted cutting my hands. Lol :) . And the songs 'Agaya Agaya' and 'Zooby Zooby' still lingers in my ears.

He was active in the 'Alter Boys' in the church and he won prizes for music competitions ,That was in his teenage years.My brother and I too have danced together for various church activities. 

Years went by. The passion for movies also grew with us. Almost everyone in our family are movie maniacs. But the passion in my elder brother was deeply engraved than us. Most of my cousins & we 3 siblings  moved to Bangalore for studies.

He only introduced myself to the World Cinema. I watched 'Kwaito Tsotsi' , 'City Of God' and 'Ameros Perros' with him.

He got his break through the famous Director 'Lijo Jose Pellissery' the son of noted actor 'Jose Pellissery'. They were friends from Bangalore. I too even knew Lijochettan through my brother.
Finally they made it through one of the major hits in Malayalam Movie Industry  'Amen'. 

My whole point  writing in this Article is to let know everyone that I am very proud of him.
Here attaching a picture of us which was taken during my Engagement. :)







Friday 5 December 2014

Yet Again Christmas Time...

So the year 2014 went off so fast. This was the year with so much of turmoil and confusions in my life.I took the most challenging and heartbreaking decision in my life in this year , read it as 'Moving To Australia.'
Being in Dubai for more than  half a decade , I had got used to the whims and fancies of Dubai. Its a irony that most of the time while being in Dubai I  blamed the place by comparing it with Bangalore .
But this year changed it all. I irrevocably fell in love with Dubai.May be the twists and turns happened in this year or may be because I made a lot of new friends.Whatever may be the reasons, the damage of loosing myself to Dubai was irreparable. 
Coming to the life in Adelaide, its laid back and beautiful, but boring as well. Compared to the working class life style of Dubai, here people are having a laid back country side living . I lived in the hills and I was awestruck at the silence of the place. Like my friend said 'The only sound you hear sometimes is your own heartbeats '. That is indeed the atmosphere here.
And people here are very friendly. In the initial weeks , I felt a bit annoyed by being smiled and greeted  at everywhere be it in the bus,shopping mall etc.
It will take some time before sinking in here. And in this hemisphere, December comes in summer season so is Christmas. :(.. 
But the Christmas decorations and the atmosphere is totally different from what I have seen in Dubai or in Bangalore. 

So its again the year end . A time to wind up some things and bring in the fresh seasons in life.The New year comes with new hopes and new aspirations. May it be the best for everyone out there..

Season's greetings to all....


Wednesday 5 November 2014

Kiss

"Stephen kissed me in the spring,
 Robin in the fall,
 But Colin only looked at me
 And never kissed at all.

Stephen's kiss was lost in the jest,
Robin's lost in play,
But the kiss in Colin's  eyes
Haunts me night and day."

--Sara Teasdale

Thursday 22 May 2014

Lazy Sundays

When I take a memory trip down my childhood all the Sundays are irrevocably attached to eating beef.I can never associate a Sunday without Beef.After attending Sunday classes  in church we come home with the fervent hope of eating beef and rice.I think I realized and exhibited frustration for the very first time in my life on Sundays where there was no meat. Blame it on the carnivorous genes in my family.
As we grew older, the frequency of having beef was every other alternate days.. And other days it was fish. I cant imagine a single day where there was no beef or fish.

After I shifted for my studies to Bangalore for the very first time I learned that cow slaughter is religious thing and none of my friends  eat it.  I remember one day I got beef to eat with lunch when Swati (who is a Shiva devotee) asked what is it I said 'it is Mutton' so as to not make her feel weird or something.She stretched her hand towards my lunch box to taste some and I immediately apologized and informed her that Its beef. It took lot of time for me to adjust with that but eventually I started liking Chicken

Now I can survive without eating it for months.I can even survive without eating non-veg food  for months. I never thought I can change that part in me ,but it did..Nothing is constant! Everybody is a victim of changes!!

Friday 9 May 2014

Football World Cup 2014







Its like all of a sudden I woke up from a deep sleep only to realise that football World cup is just a few weeks away. I am one of that kind who turns to become a football fan only when there is a World cup. So I inevitably become a fan once in 4 years. And this time its in Brazil.. yayayay!!! . And I will support a team which has more good looking players. Yes  I am crazy. I know...

Last time it was in SA with Shakira full on.. :) .. I am yet to see this time's official song.
I can remember the events starting from  1994. I remember having a T-shirt with the World cup in 1994. In 1998 it was my first year in Pre-degree where seniors ragged me and asked me to sing 'Un,dos,tre'.. :) ..  2002 I was doing my Bachelor's degree second year and couldn't even watch a single match as we were not allowed to watch television in the hostel. I was staying in a convent hostel and we almost lived a nun's life. 2006 I remember having a conversation with someone through smsing about the whole thing.

And last time in the year 2010, I had come here to Dubai to attend a few job interviews and whenever we switched the television on there was Shakira's belly..And now here I am in the year 2014 writing this very own post and at the same time introspecting my decision to move to Australia...

What would I be doing in the year 2018? Would I be active in this space? Alive and kicking?




Tuesday 8 April 2014

My poor heart....






My heart has been broken,has been abused,has been cursed,torn,hurt,poisoned,crushed, disrespected and mostly injected with pain. 

Nevertheless it is not convinced of loosing its power of falling in love again.

So the old saying  'You can crush me, but you can never crush my spirit'  still holds good

Feeling depressed!!

Saturday 5 April 2014

Charsi

Me: Your mom must be very pretty. Whats her age?
Kiran : My age + 18 ..

Somehow I found  the way he put it ,  really pretty.. :)


Sunday 30 March 2014

The time being Passed!

Of late,for me, one of the happiest moment in a real long time was getting the Australian PR .3 Months of sheer anticipation,excitement and restlessness  came to an end on Dec 30th 2013, just because the outcome of my application for the PR was positive . I was all happy.. 
The happiness was followed by my son's birthday and my birthday . It even got multiplied by some other reasons. And then my much awaited  Australian Trip .  And I was thinking about  my options to leave Dubai.
All these 4 years while working in Dubai I always missed Bangalore(I still do and always will...) so much that, I  bore  my colleagues about my Bangalore days almost everyday. But never ever  I felt this way as I am feeling right now , when I was about to leave Bangalore.

So the obvious question, what am i feeling right now about leaving Dubai? How I wish I could name that feeling. It is strange . It is unpleasant. Its is painful. The thought that I might have to start from scratch again in OZ land dreads me. And  on a worse not, nobody is forcing me to go there ,it is solely my decision and  The decision is made . But implementing it is taking a stroll on me emotionally.

Hope I will feel better as the time passes.

Tuesday 11 March 2014

Australian Dreams

Australia has been a dream for me since my college days.I am still unsure what attracted me to this place  , may be the flowers and trees once I have seen in a wall paper or may b the laid back atmosphere it has or may be the white beaches or beautiful sunny weather. I am still not sure the pulling factor but I always wanted to live there at least for sometime in my life.

So as a further step I applied for the Australian PR and I was granted a visa on last December.Needless to say ,I was all happy and jumping with the hopes of moving to Australia sooner or later..

The visa grant letter came with a 'First Entry Date' of 7th Oct 2014. That means me and my kid should make the entry before that date. Otherwise the visa will be deemed invalid.

So I decided to travel and was all excited.When I checked the Australian destinations , all of them are more than 10 hours flight time  from Dubai. The shortest flying distance is to Perth which is 10 hours and Sydney being the longest . My excitement suddenly started to narrow down thinking abt the long flight I should have alone with the toddler.I started thinking over and over about it. All happiness and excitement started to vanish slowly. I started feeling that trip would be horrible with me and kid all alone. My husband was not getting leaves and there were other issues as well.I started to sulk.

 I started thinking over many options.

Option 1: As my cousin lives in Melbourne, at first I thought I will go to Melbourne. The non stop  flights were always full until March. The other two flights to Melbourne are connecting in Singapore and in KULampur.And changing the flight with the kid around wont be a nice idea. On top of that , MEL flight is 14 or 15 hours long. 

Option 2 : I checked whether any of relatives or friends live in Perth. From my parents I came to know that my second cousin lives in there. I checked with them whether they can just pick me up from the airport and drop off to where do I stay. I tried to get their contact number just for emergency purposes . Both in vain.

Option 3 : It was not even option when I started with this whole thing. But came very close to be an option. Some spark related and beautiful option .. I am sorry I cant give in the details here...G.H.A.Z.A.N.O.V.A   :).. And this was the best option.. 

So finally i took the big step of travelling alone with the toddler and Chose Perth as the destination cuz that's the shortest flying time from dxb. I booked a crew hotel and changed the currency. As such I am scared of flight journey, so scared that even the Captain and FO can hear my heart beats and will mistake it for some kinda turbulence.

But what option do i have other than this? Though I have travelled alone with the kiddo to Indian Destinations, this was the first time I was going to fly to long distance where I will  surely get a jet lag .

Throughout my predicament and agony, my mother kept on calling me and said all will be ok. There will be someone to extend a helping hand when needed.. I kept thinking.. Thinking.. That's what i do other times as well. Again checked on my options just to make sure if any other options are there.

Finally the big day arrived. The flight was kinda empty. I got 3 seats to myself and one other person sitting in the 4th seat.It was a night flight.So the baby fell asleep past the dinner. I too was sleepy. The aircraft was cruising at 40,000 feet. Not much of noise.Peaceful atmosphere. I was getting kinda royal treatment by the crew firstly because i have a toddler secondly I think I was the only staff who was travelling in that flight. Towards the equator, there was slight turbulence which woke me up. I checked on the baby he was fast asleep.

Exactly at the same moment I realised that the person who will lend a helping hand  in difficult times or who will never leave your side is 'YOU' yourself.You need to be strong and tough and keep your heads up. 'YOU' have a lot of hidden potential in you which will come out in least predicted situations.And this was the moment for me. I was no more scared of the turbulence.I looked at my baby. Hugged him tight and went back to sleep only to open my eyes when the destination was just 30 minutes in reach..


Life is good :)









Saturday 8 February 2014

Melbourne Chronicle


I informed my cousin Melbin who lives in Melbourne(Did that just rhyme??) about my plans of going to Melbourne
We were whatsapping and he asked me to come in skype and we were seeing each other like after long time..

And On skype, by default the caller's video is off(I guess) and I was calling him.

Mel : Whats with your video? I cant see you..Turn it on...
Me : (Grinning)Wait A Sec, I will turn it on... Can you see me now?
Mel :(Laughing louder).. Yes I can see you now..But it was better without the video...

The grin vanished!!

Cousins can be so mean sometimes.. :)

Have a great DAY!!!

Wednesday 5 February 2014

Yahoo Chat Rooms..

Way back in 2000, bunch of us girls from my hostel dressed up smartly and going for an evening out

Hostel Warden: Where you  all going?
One of Us: hmmmm.. For 'Chatting'....
Warden : Chatting??? With whom???
One of US: hmmm..aaah... We mean Chatting online..Not particulary with anyone..

Yes that was one of our activities during those times....

Yahoo Chat Rooms!! You will be  always my first Love in social media :) .. buhahahahahah

Thursday 30 January 2014

Witty

Colleague: So you got the visa and all, when are you treating me?
Me: Soon man.. I mean I surely buy you a meal when I leave..
Colleague  : Then Leave soon..

His instant witt made me lol this afternoon.... :)

Monday 27 January 2014

Leaving Forever


She: You will forget me eventually.. You will get married and go off forever.. I will miss you!!!

He : Oh Girl, how can someone take off the memories what we shared or what we  still share.. So Don't worry :)


Those words actually put me into deep thoughts...