Deepa- Light

My name Deepa means light in many Indian languages.  To say the least, light always inspired me. Candle lights, Christmas lights, Decoration lights be it anything at times you can find me lost in many places staring at the lights. It gives me immense joy by just looking at these.

When I was growing up back in Kerala (India) during my study time I used to stare at a lamp on top of a chapel which was a bit far. But right now many other building came on the way and one cannot see it. Even we moved from that house to another one. Those times our house was facing rice paddies. I used to stare endlessly at various light spots in the paddy with a textbook in my hand. It kind of filled my mind with pure bliss. Christmas lights around the world fascinated me. I picked some of my destinations to travel just because they are well lit during Christmas.

Thinking of my childhood made me think about another thing which is that I always got judged because sometimes I dint fit in with the norms.  When I was a young adult I learned to tweak myself to fit into the crowd more. But some things remain the same how much ever you try to please others and fall in the normalcy of things

The comments on me usually used to go like this… Oh look at her ‘She is so headstrong!!’, ‘She is so talkative’, and ‘She must be a flirt and a bitch! ’ ..   What I find amusing is that when they find out that I am different from what they thought then they get offended… Come on… You can feel stupid if your judgement was wrong but don’t feel offended…ever!

Years passed by. Marriage. Child. Three relocations in different continents. Made countless friends. Lost many of them... Some rifts… Some mending... Life goes on. But till today I find people who are too quick to judge. It’s the strangers masquerade behind the mask called ‘friends’.

Ona another note I decided to post once a month this whole year. 2019 Blogging year…