Sorry

If I could ever track that person again, All I would tell him is “I am sorry”. I am sorry for being rude. I am sorry for being judgmental. I am sorry from the bottom of my heart.

This happened when I was living in Bangalore. My mom had sent me a courier from Kerala. I was impatiently waiting for this courier as it was something important. That time I was going through a down phase in my life. Snapping at everything and everyone was kinda helping me to free myself from the stress.

Back to the incident, he had phoned me to ask for guidance to locate my apartment and I snapped at him and said he can find that on the envelope. After say 20 minutes he dint arrive so I called him .With a humble tone he said, ‘Ma’am, I am drinking water from a shop and I will arrive shortly.” I was like what the hell! He is gone to drink water when his at most priority was to deliver me the stuff. I grew impatient. I raised my voice at him saying to come fast as I am waiting down my apartment and its hot summer Blah! Blah.I gave him a piece of my mind..

After sometime I saw a very old person in his modest bike wandering and searching for a location. It occurred to me with a sense of guilt that he might be the courier person and I stopped him. He was indeed the courier guy. I was expecting  the delivery guy maximum to be in his 40s .I never ever expected him to be so old may be older than my father. He was weak. He was thin. He had all the right reasons to drink water in that hot summer. After all, at that age he was still working to earn a livelihood. I felt as a smallest thing on earth when he told me the street no in the address is wrong on the envelope and he was searching for me in the adjacent street, that’s why he could not locate me earlier.He was right. My mom had written wrong street no in the address.  With that note he drove off  after giving me my stuff and I just looked at him without saying anything.

I am sorry for that rude behavior!!